Emo.

Hmm.......
Am I that emo compared to last year end and the first half month of the year 2009?
I guess not~

Statistically,I'm not
number of not-emo post / number of emo post
= more to not-emo post.

*Emo post is not equal to 'Fact' post

Haha,this is what happen is you duo core,blogging and add maths.

Anyway.
Why there's a change?
Figured out when doing add math ----------
This shows that I'm alert to the environment no matter what happen!
Okay okay!Fine~I know what are you meaning~ xP
Not paying attention xP

An object,has different methods of describing it,by the way you're looking at it.
Yeah.
The way you are looking at it.

That post,still remember that post about me discover about my pessimism thing?
I wrote about it in CN and even got prize from it remember?
Yeah.

I'm still who I am even I've discovered about it.
This is me,raised in this type of environment by my parents.This is a part of me.
I won't be able to change that easily.
So as you!

But then,I don't think I'm that pessimism now.
And I don't think I'm that emo these few months.

Maybe ever since the June incident,I changed my thought,point of view.
And I finally know what Shakespeare wants to tell me.
And I know,that way doesn't work out at all.

It is TOO MUCH

And it's very much meaningless.

Meaningless?
Hopeless?

Cool down~
Really thanks for giving me time to think.

Zhi Wey told me that when she chat with me online,she felt like chating with another person.
Yeah.Even me agree too...

I am soo different from the real me and the cyber Michael Khai.
Not I wanted to be come what I want.
But,honestly,I just don't have to guts.

Haven't I told you before?I talk before I think.
Because adrenalin runs faster than my nerve impulses.This is my behavior.
Even though I have the time to think before I talk,I just don't have the guts to let it all out.
However,internet is much different.
I can let everything out here,cause I can't see you,you can't see me!
There's NO emotion in the message!
Even you add those equal close brackets,my brain has to imagine myself chatting to the one I'm imaging,so as you.
That also explain to.
I wanted to do so much things yet,I don't dare to do it.
Ain't I post this before?Dejavu....

That's why,the real Wei Khai,is who you met in school.
But his real feeling and what he's thinking,the only place you can met with them is online.
I don't know,they are not in a piece like what you think.
Haiz.....

I need my guts back. >.<

Conclusion,that's why things is very much different from last time.
Because like what you said,we are separated by a wall.

Still,you have the ability to change your life,whether you want or not.
There only 2 road,go or no go.
Make your decision,and stick with your decision.
Then only you won't regret of you life.

And,accept it.I've accepted yours....
That's why,I am not emo any more.